I have been planning to write this one for months, years even. Did I tell you one of my favourite hobbies is observing people. Not just the kind where you look at someone and find something to comment about but I kind of like personalities.
One person with all their traits inside out, the causes and the effects and all that. I like to observe and get a clear picture in my head. I am right most of the time and I have often considered getting a degree in psychology.
I think human mind is one of the most intriguing things in this universe - The way it works and the way it makes you work. Of course a degree like that comes with a baggage of its own.
So while I think of and see all those around me, I was thinking today why would I do something like that? If you met me, you would know. It just popped into my head right now. I need to know because I am a control freak.
Things like these - Knowing people inside out helps me stay in control. I don't like to lose control - ever. I just realized it seems to be a difficult proposition for me.
Also the fact that my hubby (I will just call him M from now on) has been the only person to have observed this and stated ipso facto. It is the character trait where I get upset when things are not the way I want them to be.
I think it upsets most of us but maybe they can all pretend that its ok while I make it clear that it has upset me. Well that's just me and a little soul searching always helps. I do get mad when things don't go my way. I hate losing control ~ "Past experiences to blame". I am a control freak and a hell of a perfectionist but that is also something that makes me finish everything I start. :)
The Definition ~ "Control freaks are often perfectionists defending themselves against their own inner vulnerabilities, in the belief that, if not in total control, they risk exposing themselves once more to childhood angst. Such figures manipulate and pressurise others to change, so as to avoid having to change themselves; use power over others to escape an inner emptiness.When a control freak's pattern is broken, “the Controller is left with a terrible feeling of powerlessness … But feeling their pain and fear brings them back to themselves. In terms of personality-type theory, control freaks are very much the Type A personality, driven by the need to dominate and control."
I will let others be the judge. ;) If you want to continue reading on Personality types, This is what I found:
The theory describes a Type A individual as ambitious, rigidly organized, highly status conscious, can be sensitive, care for other people, are truthful, impatient, always try to help others, take on more than they can handle, want other people to get to the point, proactive, and obsessed with time management. People with Type A personalities are often high-achieving "workaholics" who multi-task, push themselves with deadlines, and hate both delays and ambivalence. Under Psychodynamic theory (derived from Freudian Psychology).
The theory describes Type B individuals as perfect contrast to those with Type A personalities. People with Type B personalities are generally apathetic, patient, relaxed, easy-going, no sense of time schedule, having poor organization skills, and at times lacking an overriding sense of urgency. These individuals tend to be sensitive of other people's feelings.
The two most frequently noted characteristics of cancer-prone personality are found in Type C personality. Type C personalities are described as suppressing emotional expression, and denying strong emotional reactions; failing to cope successfully with stress, with a reaction of giving up, linked with feelings of hopelessness and helplessness.
Interesting stuff eh? This also means I am going to be writing more on other people but I thought the best way is to start with myself. Wonder what personality trait would that be? I'll keep guessing.